not a Happy Birthday!!

I don't know why, today isn't my day.

cuz I AM NOT HAPPY AT ALL.

1st, i had an arguement with Des which was so hurt, as usual.
This time, i am more concern of what will happen to our relationship in the future..
as we argued to each other, average like, once in a week.
And yes, this is definately a GOOD NEWS for those haters who always wonder when will be the end of our relationship.
Well, i don't give a damn at all.

2nd, I'm having a tummy-ache. Ima so pain!! *ouch*

3rd, my father has been missing since 5pm. 27th Nov 09 <--- according to my mum.
We've actually talked on phone around 11am yesterday.
He didn't tell me where is he exactly.
We have been ringing him for gazillion times.
We thought of he will be back home by tonight but he didn't. 
We assumed that he is still in Sandakan and his cellphone is off, probably he has been sleeping since 5pm.
It doesn't make sense because he had never OFF his phone just like that.
ARGHHH!!!!!
What had happen to my father???!!!
I'm so worry right now?!!
Why man always made us (woman) so worry of them??
Sheesh!!!

Now, im gonna off to bed.

P.S# and im still counting what will happen next..

P.S.S# Thanks for all of my lovely friends who sent me birthday wishes and blessings. You guys are great!! Well, i guess this is the only thing that cheers me.

Good day!

Balut Interport Competition is just around the corner.
Excited.
and yet i am much more concern on how to settle Ethan on that day.

The competition starts at 12pm till 5pm.
Ethan is definately gonna be in my mum's place.
Then, i will have 2 hours break to get change for dinner cum prize presentation.
I will need to decide if i bring Ethan along to the dinner or else.
I wonder if my mum could handle him all day long.

Not to mention, its kinda tiring to take care of a 9 months old baby, especially Ethan.
I'm still nursing and he depends on me very much.
When the time he wants to sleep, that's the time he need me the most.
That's the only problem i have at the moment.
and which is why i will bring him along wherever i go.

I am alright if i bring him along to the dinner,
but, just that its not suitable for him to be in the dinner
as it will be crowded and noisy.

Headache. Headache.

Now, im off to continue my housechores.

See you all real soon.

It's 7am now.
I'm so sleepy and my body is tiring.
But, i can't sleep.

How would you feel if a person who is closed enough, who you love and care the most...
when he/she misunderstand you...

How would you feel if he/she does not listen to you...
when you tried to explain yourself...

How would you feel if he/she does not even bother to understand you...

How would you feel if he/she does not care how you feel...
when he/she said something hurtful...

How would you feel??

I am so much depress.

I cried.

I feel pain in my heart.

I scared.

Who I am? to you..

I am not sure anymore.

Perhaps, she could be the best for you, and she is irreplaceable.

I'm back!!

Hello people. I'm back! Finally. After so long..
Missing this blog so much.

Previously, i blogged at christy.deschristy.com for quite awhile.
One fine day, I was thought of log in and blog eventually, it failed to log in.
Whenever i tried to sign in, it will come out with an error.
Till now, i don't even know whats going on with my wordpress.
Domain expired? Perhaps..
Ah!! Care no more.

My life has been up and down and quite 'busy' because i'm working as a housewife and a full time mother.
My son, Ethan Lai is 8 months old now.
He is now crawling every single corner of my house.
He is still learning to balance himself while he climb up.
He is just being restless.
and i'm so exhausted while chasing him here and there.

Time really flies.

In another 1 month, Ethan will start walking, perhaps?
*sigh*
I could imagine, it's gonna be extremely tiring.

Did i mention, Ethan is teething?
Yes he is and i guess his gums are itch most of the time.
Which is why he likes to take whatever things and put it into his mouth.
Pity him.

So much to share about Ethan. =p

I'm so thankful because God has gifted me a healthy baby,
and, i've learnt to appreciate my parents who brought me to this world.
Fed me, educated me and all the hardworks and sacrifices that they had gone through all these while.

I love you, pa and ma. 

My wedding has just passed..
and finally, I am officially Mrs Lai..

Before i begin with my wedding entry, i would like to leave a short message for 2 lovely person.
Hey buggers, i bet you probably felt that you're sucha loser right now..
You all shouldn't mess with us from the earlier time.
You are just making joke out of yourself.
Somemore, both you not even dare to show up on our wedding reception.
WHAT A LOSER!!!
so, get off pleasee..
MwahaHahaHahahaHaha..
ok I'm done with this. *continue laugh teribbly*

I had never thought of to prepare a wedding could be such a tough job.
Especially when you only be given two months time of wedding preparation.

I still remember those days when me and desmond rush from kk city to citymall then One Borneo just to look for our shoes/heels, ended up back home with empty handed.

I remembered when we scratching hard our head to decide which colors to be use on the wedding reception.

I still remember the day we took our wedding potraits in the studio, i wore the bloody heavy gown which almost make my neck break into two pieces.

Not forgotten Desmond carried me under the hot sun with his thick blazzer just for that damn good shot.

and and and, i will never forget the day i feel like a celebrity, a superstar.. Everyone wanted to take a picture with you so badly... 

Looking back..

It is all worth it.. It's memories to share, to talk about when both of us grow old. I love those moments, i wish i could turn back time...

to be continue...